I am not sure where all of this sentiment is coming from! Where I have been able to talk about this operation quite openly and in great detail, I now get very emotional and feel very beleaguered. I am not sure if I am stressed about this operation and if I am just plain frightened. It is two very different emotions.
We went out for dinner with friends last night, but I have also noticed this on a few other occasions, that when the conversation turns to this topic, I get a bit knotty and almost reluctant to talk about it. I now just need support from people not question whether it would have been cheaper in another country and what about other options.
It is also difficult when you have new people in the group who think you are just a fat girl who should diet and exercise. Maybe my perception of comments made or advise offered if you want to call it that, is wrong but hey idiot do you honestly think that I will just spend £11 000-00 on an operation if I did not feel that this the absolute last resort. I am tired of trying to justify myself to newcomers and other people who look at things with tunnel vision. It is in the end my decision and what I do with my life is of no concern to any one else but my loved ones!
I am spending this weekend in Scotland; it will be good to get away from it all. A lot of comments some very good some not so nice, has been made about what I will look like after this procedure. I am very aware of the fact that I will probably need body contouring surgery done after my weight loss. I do not know what size I will turn out to be. No I do not want to get down to a size 6 or 8. I am not in this for the looks, although it will be great to look good skinny, I look good anyway. I take good care of myself and I am pretty.
Now please can you stop the second inquisition and the gossiping where I am concerned and just support me ~ it is all I ask!